Catch the Wind
I had rededicated my heart to the Lord after many years of walking away during my teen years and early adulthood. I made a commitment to follow after him again after my first son was born. I wanted a deeper relationship with Him like I wanted when I was a child. I wanted to know more about who Jesus was. Not to just hear about him through the bible or from others, but to feel him like he is right in the room with me. I knew that it was possible.
I remember sitting in my living room while my son was asleep upstairs. While watching the inauguration of President Obama on television, I felt an urge to talk to Jesus. I wanted to be baptized in the Holy Spirit so that I could speak to him in tongues. That day while sitting in my chair the gift of speaking in tongues came upon me. I started out slowly and then it began to pick up over time.
I was hungry for the Lord. I wanted to know more about him and about his ways.
I remember attending a women's gathering at church. They were studying on Beth Moore. Prior to this study they were listening to music that came upon a screen in the room. The music was beautiful. While I was listening to it, I started to weep and I did not understand why at the time. I was feeling the presence of the Lord through the words that were being sung. I remember feeling that day like I was the only one in the room, but many women were around me.
You see I grew up without much communication in my family and I did not know how to express emotions especially in a healthy way. I needed someone to listen to me and someone to talk with. After pursuing him he made himself known to me and I was able to hear his voice for myself. It was what my heart desired for many years since my childhood. You know what I found out? I found out that he wanted a relationship with me too. Just like he wants it with you. He has so much to share with you and to tell you. He wants to make our lives whole again. He wants us to have joy and peace. He wants to heal us of our hurts.
I went through heartache and suffering and dealt with much rejection. I found out I had much trauma in my life and I needed healing. Who knew? He knew and he wanted to bring that healing to me. He opened my eyes to see that my heart wasn't whole. In fact it was broken and shattered.
He comes to mend broken hearts... let him come and mend yours.